It has been a long time coming, but this year will be the year I convert. Yes, convert. I am going to become a Catholic this year. This is both shocking and confusing to my friends for a lot of reasons, and I have been questioned several times about why I am doing it. The comment I hear most is, "But...you aren't religious" (insert incredulous tone and expression of shock). After the aforementioned, the most common opinions are that this is absurd because of the many awful things the church has done, because of the political persuasion of the church, because of the priest problems, because of the male-dominated and downright weird culture of the Vatican. These are all issues that I have been struggling with since the beginning of this journey as well. In fact, these questions are part of why it's taken so long for me to start the process of conversion. The other part is the fact that the process is pretty involved. It means, one night a week away from my family and a lot of work that, quite sadly, I'm not sure I have the brain for anymore.
So, having explained myself, I will use this blog solely to hash out my questions, concerns, lessons, mystic beauties, and every other experience in the next six months of preparation for baptism and conversion at the baptism of my children next Easter.
It isn't without some fear and trepidation that I begin this journey. My heart doesn't feel ready to be faithful. My mind doesn't feel ready to suspend itself outside of reality. My soul is tired. But, when I think about it, all these reasons to run away are the best reasons to step headlong into spirituality. It has been sorely missing from my life for too long. It is time.
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